After my seventh concussion and being diagnosed with Traumatic Brain Injury, as stated in my last two blogs, I began to take my injury more seriously and knew I needed to make a change in my life. My emotions were on a roller coaster ride. One minute I would be happy, then next my husband would say something and I was ready to pummel him in rage and then the next I would be crying hysterically like a toddler having a temper tantrum. Not only were my emotions wreaking havoc in my life but my memory, word searching, attention span, reasoning and problem-solving skills were like a child.
Since I had been told by my neurologist to not read, go online or watch TV, I needed to do something to occupy my time and get healthy. To go from having 15 hours scheduled by the minute to no schedule was utter maddening. You can only spend so much of your day meditating, doing yoga, going for hikes/walks and cooking. I was still struggling to occupy my days and I wasn’t ready to see very many people other than my closest of friends. My godfather and mother came over for a visit and she taught me to knit. I became a knitting fool. Making scarves, hats, shawls for everyone I knew.
My sister-in-law gave me a nail art kit for my birthday and soon I was making everyone wood nail art deer, owls, ravens and landscape pieces. I also thought it was time to do something with the bags and bags of wine corks I had collected and made these wooden and cork hot pot holders for dining room tables and cork boards. That Christmas everyone got a Rane original creation! I was becoming a crafting aficionado and enjoying the smiles on people’s faces as they got something made by me. I was getting a little over zealous with my knitting and I think I made everyone I knew something, that my husband suggested isn’t there other art therapies or maybe even music therapies I could try?
One of the many shawls I created for friends.
I then remembered with the work I was doing before I went on medical leave from Microsoft regarding helping military veterans reskill and get jobs in technology. There was research on art and music therapy helping military veterans with traumatic brain injury. I thought if it could work for them, it may possibly work for me. I couldn’t read the research reports to understand the details and unfortunately scholarly reviewed publications are not on digital audio yet, (perhaps, someone should really look into that.) So, I went to my psychologist and asked what types of art and music therapy I should try. This would occupy more of my day, give my monkey mind a part-time job and hopefully start helping my cognitive impairments. He suggested I start first with the adult coloring books and listening to classical music.
Once, I was able to read again I began to learn what art and music therapy can really do for you. In the last ten years, there has been significant progress in the study of TBI and art/music therapies.” Biomedical researchers have found that music is a highly structured auditory language involving complex perception, cognition, and motor control in the brain, and thus it can effectively be used to retrain and reeducate the injured brain.”
I also learned that listening to “polyphonic music has shown to engage neural circuits underlying multiple forms of working memory, attention, semantic processing, target detection, and motor imagery, in turn indicating that music listening engages brain areas that are involved in general functions rather than music-specific areas.” A good example of polyphonic music is this old Sting classic, I love this YouTube rendition.
In addition to listening to music, I took it a step further and have been teaching myself to play the acoustic guitar. Through other books, I learned the importance of dancing and singing every day to my favorite song and how that help grow the strength in my vagus nerve (As my earlier blog stated, I learned my vagus nerve was having issues and was the reason for my blacking out and causing all my concussions and traumatic brain injury).
My poor husband would have to listen to me belt out at the top of my lungs ‘Dancing Queen’ by ABBA or ‘It’s a Beautiful Day’ by U2 or ‘Brown Eyed Girl by Van Morrison and the list goes on and on. I started rubbing off on my friends and they would text me their dance out song of the day. You should try it; your whole body get a rush of endorphins and total jubilation once your done with a grin a mile long and your spouse laughing hysterically at you.
My first set of paintings on display at Chow Restaurant in Bend, Oregon.
I was starting to get bored with my adult coloring books from Costco. When I was at the Newport Visual Arts Center, looking at the latest show there was a bunch of people painting with watercolors on the second floor. As I walked in, I found out they had received a grant that allowed them to give free art classes every day for the community and I was invited in to try. So for the rest of the Summer, every week I attended the water color class, pottery class, pastel class, coloring pencil class, and acrylic painting class. Soon, I was able to read again, I learned through Psychology Today that art therapists, “McGuinness and Schnur worked with TBI patients and they explain the salient roles of art therapy in addressing various parts of the brain with clients in a user-friendly way.”
They also state that, “art therapy can help with organization, problem solving, and memory when the frontal lobes have been affected by TBI.” I then started concentrating on acrylic painting as my favorite form of painting. And thanks to my friends Lisa and Amy, who one day said, “Hey Rane, you are actually getting good- you should sell your art!” To my utter amazement, a local restaurant wanted me to show my art and by January 2018 I had sold 12 pieces.
Filling my days with painting, listening and playing music my energy, emotions and memory were improving. The hardest part of my TBI has been moving from a super positive always happy demeanor that rarely ever got mad to this uncontrollable rage that pops up from just a little comment could set me off. If anything can calm this new emotion, I am happy to do it. I am lucky my husband is understanding and can deal with these moments that happen several times a month. My days are now packed with art, music, yoga, mediation and the outdoors. I highly encourage everyone, even those who may not have traumatic brain injury the power of adding more art, music or crafting in your life. A lot of the research highlights how it can help slow and possibly stop Alzheimer. Here are a few of my favorite beginner Youtube videos to get you started with music, art and knitting, I hope you try- I promise you will have fun!
- Music: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=llNuwhZWXKA&t=2s
- Painting: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9m3u6WkPrj8 & https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZT4Mg5bd4E0
- Knitting: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KCgEUwESYZk